Okay. I'm back. I'm done having my temper tantrum. I came back thinking that nobody would really care about me, but I guess I was wrong. The problem is probably that I don't play analytically and just mash buttons instead. I don't really think critically about what I am doing. I guess it's a little silly to not practice meaningfully and then expect to get better.

I cannot thank this community enough for being supportive. Thank you to everyone who replied.