Just thought I'd share thoughts and an area to reflect on what I think is wrong with my play right now. Missed tech skill and poor movement are the biggest factors now, on top of poor accuracy on actually hitting people (flubbing a punish). But 5 months ago I couldn't even L cancel, I had to watch my character the entire time and could not pay attention to my opponents. Now I feel a ton more comfortable throwing out hitboxes and moving around the stage. I'm still garbage though and I think my current W/L is 1/50. 

But that's okay. In 5 months I think I've improved my movement a lot more than most people. Maybe others just focused on punishing instead of trying to fluidly move through map but I don't just want good movement, I want my movement to be pristine so I can put myself in positions to optimally punish my opponent. I think overall my mentality towards my situation and the entire game is on the positive side. I've gotten salty a handful of times when I felt under the weather and I apologize to people that may have been put off by me (although I never trash talk but I have rage quit once). That's definitely something else to work on but at least compared to my time playing CS competitively I'm a much better off, at least in the sense of being able to control my emotions. 

So short term goal - I want to be able to confidently play people within my skill level and I want to be able to not miss l cancels, wavelands, or surf dashes.